Winter and I

It's winter again, I open my eyes;
Trees covered with snow.
The last thing I remember was a moonlit night and the stars had put up a show.

I remember this window where I stood still;
Thinking about you walking down a hill.
A lovely white robe and glowing hair;
Under the moonlight you looked so fair.

And here I stand with my arms wide open;
Looking at your eyes as they come closer.
Every little step and my heart skips a beat;
I've been waiting for you forever.

Where are the stars? 
Oh where is the moon? 
Where is the hill?
and where are you?

Yes its winter and there is snow;
Yet another year when I miss you so.
The sheets are not that warm anymore;
It wasn't time but you had to go.

Aging thoughts fading away,
Lying in a coffin I saw you that day.
Countless winters, summers and rain;
I await my turn to see you again.

My sexy babe!!

while the tune plays in my head
it reminds me of u
my heart skips a beat
coz my love for u is true.

whenever i am lonely
u make me feel better
my touch makes u moan
we spend a gud time together

your body so smooth
that ur beauty stands out in the crowd
u stare silent as i plug into u
just a pinch makes u scream out loud...

together we make a great pair
as our actions find their way
the world can just stand and stare
while ve make out till the end of the day

you hav always stood by me
grabbing my shoulders as I cried
together we shared moments of joy
while our sorrows cud go and hide

you my babe are my love of all
the one who will neva betray
ure the one I can always trust
my sexy guitar, lets play!!!

Its just a word!!

I am in this deep hole of mindlessness

my legs try to struggle through the corpses of my mistakes

its been a long time I don’t really remember

but a single word is all it takes...

I don’t really remember the last word I said

when life turned its back on a worthless creep

my eyes are fixed at the visions of the past

my bloodless heart screams down deep

out of fear I scream my guts out

I wish someone could just hear me out

still thinking what that word was

if I knew i'd shout out loud

the more I think it pulls me deeper

the strong stench of dead morals makes me high

I look ahead at the small opening

and say to myself...its worth givin a try..

lost in the dictionary of memories

I turn the pages one after the other

"sex", "drugs", "alcohol"..and a whole lota words

all seemed to surround me, and bind me together

finaly theres a glimpse !!

but appears pale and grey

'love' is the word

which has lost its meaning today!

How can i forgive...

I walked down a lane;

a lonely soul in pain.

you appeared at a distance

totally wet in the rain.

I stood and watched your cheerful smile

soaking in the rain for quite a while,

you asked me to join in as we danced in the rain

for a moment i found even i had a smile..

Now we turned friends so fast

i always wished that it would last

as the world around you went afar

i stayed with you as the time passed.

It was then, i realised my love for you

even you saw it in my eyes too

i accepted the fact you never loved me

but always stayed a close friend to you.

And now it is in your eyes i see

no place for a friend in your heart for me

i see a new world build around u

and you have almost forgotten me.

I cried and cried for days forlorn

you used me when your world was gone

i know you never really meant it this way

but still i feel my heart is torn.

And its raining again today

trying to wash my tears away

whatever you did to me i can't forgive

but i will always love you just the same way...

A little high!!

Its a crazy thing i see

street lights dancing along wid me

my foot steps falling faster than ever

i am enjoying every moment like i'd never..

its mah best friend whose one of a kind

watever mischief i do, he wud just neva mind

today we drank on our friendship so great

which will neva end, like no sunset.

what am i talkin i don't understand

am i walking on some wonderland?

i am soo fukin happy that i drank today

i m missing her more than just any other day.

girl why r ya not wid me right now??

i love u so much, and i dont know how..

i know i hurt u some days ago

but girl i neva meant it, nd it hurt me more

i know i am pretty high at the moment

but its all i can say before i faint

i dont know why i drank this rainy evening

maybe to rememba u or just to get me smiling..

At the dark beach

The wind is blowing

as if its following

my restless spirit;

The roar i hear

brings up the fear

of the silent death beneath.

Lonely, i am at this crowded beach

death is just at my arms reach

is it the gateway to heaven?

I am at peace

with the the cool wet breeze

it's a dark night, as the clock strikes eleven.

Mesmerised me,

wants to be free

but this painful body holds me tight;

Finally a drizzle wets my face

taking me away from this human race,

god! please dont end this dark eternal night.

When i was a boy..

when i was a 10 year old kid...i once wrote something..which i did'nt feel was of any importance.

but i never thaught that this work of mine will someday actually define the concept of human life as a whole.i just found it from a dusty old cupboard and felt like sharing...

When i was a boy

i ran with joy.

When i was a man 

i was like superman.

When i was old

 i felt cold.

And when i died

everybody cried. 

these may just be 8 lines of kiddish rhyme for some...but digging down deep...i dont think any explanation is required...

Neva wanna lose you..

It is some deep pain

that dwells within me

a feeling of insecurity.

a sense of loss around me

makes me curious,

am i going to lose something precious?

friends we've been

for quite long

but now i hear a soulless song.

the song we once

made for our friendship

while in the liquor we took a dip.

drunk and stoned

we walked side by side

and into the darkness our sadness hide.

is it you

or someone else i see?

trembling feet walking away from me.

but still i say

hold my words true

my dear friend! i Neva wanna lose you..

At your grave...

I breathe the air you once exhaled

I drink the water that dropped off your eyes

I live in the shadow your hair once cast

and feel the joy of our days in the past.  

your eyes as blue as the seas down deep

lips as red as the blood in me

the pale face that glowed brighter than gems

fairer than the pearls can be

now i breathe out the air u exhaled

and tears drop off MY eyes

here u lay where my shadow rests

our love will always rise.

Give me the answer!!!!!

i m soo lost in the dark sky

no stars to guide my way

did someone steal them from me?

or did they go astray?

earlier in the day i saw a white light

which tried to bring happiness into my life

but where is it now, who took it away?

will it be dark even the next day?

but before it was lost i had thrown a question

the question i had always wanted to ask.

will u be here with me all day long?

will u hold my hand till the end of the song?

but it remained as silent as hell could be

i stared in its eyes till i fainted 

and now as i wake up, its all darkness and me.

i am  trapped in this darkness when will i be free?