How can i forgive...

I walked down a lane;

a lonely soul in pain.

you appeared at a distance

totally wet in the rain.

I stood and watched your cheerful smile

soaking in the rain for quite a while,

you asked me to join in as we danced in the rain

for a moment i found even i had a smile..

Now we turned friends so fast

i always wished that it would last

as the world around you went afar

i stayed with you as the time passed.

It was then, i realised my love for you

even you saw it in my eyes too

i accepted the fact you never loved me

but always stayed a close friend to you.

And now it is in your eyes i see

no place for a friend in your heart for me

i see a new world build around u

and you have almost forgotten me.

I cried and cried for days forlorn

you used me when your world was gone

i know you never really meant it this way

but still i feel my heart is torn.

And its raining again today

trying to wash my tears away

whatever you did to me i can't forgive

but i will always love you just the same way...

A little high!!

Its a crazy thing i see

street lights dancing along wid me

my foot steps falling faster than ever

i am enjoying every moment like i'd never..

its mah best friend whose one of a kind

watever mischief i do, he wud just neva mind

today we drank on our friendship so great

which will neva end, like no sunset.

what am i talkin i don't understand

am i walking on some wonderland?

i am soo fukin happy that i drank today

i m missing her more than just any other day.

girl why r ya not wid me right now??

i love u so much, and i dont know how..

i know i hurt u some days ago

but girl i neva meant it, nd it hurt me more

i know i am pretty high at the moment

but its all i can say before i faint

i dont know why i drank this rainy evening

maybe to rememba u or just to get me smiling..

At the dark beach

The wind is blowing

as if its following

my restless spirit;

The roar i hear

brings up the fear

of the silent death beneath.

Lonely, i am at this crowded beach

death is just at my arms reach

is it the gateway to heaven?

I am at peace

with the the cool wet breeze

it's a dark night, as the clock strikes eleven.

Mesmerised me,

wants to be free

but this painful body holds me tight;

Finally a drizzle wets my face

taking me away from this human race,

god! please dont end this dark eternal night.

When i was a boy..

when i was a 10 year old kid...i once wrote something..which i did'nt feel was of any importance.

but i never thaught that this work of mine will someday actually define the concept of human life as a whole.i just found it from a dusty old cupboard and felt like sharing...

When i was a boy

i ran with joy.

When i was a man 

i was like superman.

When i was old

 i felt cold.

And when i died

everybody cried. 

these may just be 8 lines of kiddish rhyme for some...but digging down deep...i dont think any explanation is required...

Neva wanna lose you..

It is some deep pain

that dwells within me

a feeling of insecurity.

a sense of loss around me

makes me curious,

am i going to lose something precious?

friends we've been

for quite long

but now i hear a soulless song.

the song we once

made for our friendship

while in the liquor we took a dip.

drunk and stoned

we walked side by side

and into the darkness our sadness hide.

is it you

or someone else i see?

trembling feet walking away from me.

but still i say

hold my words true

my dear friend! i Neva wanna lose you..

At your grave...

I breathe the air you once exhaled

I drink the water that dropped off your eyes

I live in the shadow your hair once cast

and feel the joy of our days in the past.  

your eyes as blue as the seas down deep

lips as red as the blood in me

the pale face that glowed brighter than gems

fairer than the pearls can be

now i breathe out the air u exhaled

and tears drop off MY eyes

here u lay where my shadow rests

our love will always rise.

Give me the answer!!!!!

i m soo lost in the dark sky

no stars to guide my way

did someone steal them from me?

or did they go astray?

earlier in the day i saw a white light

which tried to bring happiness into my life

but where is it now, who took it away?

will it be dark even the next day?

but before it was lost i had thrown a question

the question i had always wanted to ask.

will u be here with me all day long?

will u hold my hand till the end of the song?

but it remained as silent as hell could be

i stared in its eyes till i fainted 

and now as i wake up, its all darkness and me.

i am  trapped in this darkness when will i be free?